I guess I've sort of been feeling down lately with school coming very soon. There has always been a big thick wall between singing & medical school. Yes; I know it will stay like that forever. And yes, i know i will never make a song titled " Noooo you don't have AIDS, thats what its suppose to look like" (well i prob could but i doubt it would be a number one hit!!). Â But I know what's in my heart (music) and I know whats in my head ( doctoryness stuff) and when 1+1=OMFG I CANT CHOOSE WHAT TO DO!; you know you have the wrong answer. I mean; singing doesn't pay for itself but medical school is competitive and really really hard; and I don't know if Im up for the challenge. I don't want to risk my whole life so I can have a 1 hit wonder. I don't want to be one of those people who go " If only I didn't do that..." But i also don't want to be one of those people who say "I wonder what would've been if I ..." But I guess if I had to choose one; I would chose the former. Better be safe than sorry, I GUESS...I don't really know. Singing is my passion but money never hurt ( unless u got slapped by it; DAMN that whiplash lasts like a whole day! LOL).
I know it's a really (I don't ACTUALLY think its that bad but rather worthy) "bad" trait but EVERYTHING has to be planned out for me in life. Absolutley everything; I am not really a fan of doing
things spontaneously. So for me (even at my age) I have to decide; Singing...or Medical School.
My mom keeps saying " you can do both!! Sing at like bars (she thinks its 1940
and I could be a CABARET singer) and still have time to have a part time job and study at medical school!!
MY ASS.
Anyways; I better decide soon. THis will take up all my time ( deciding) before I can really get any work done.
At least i have 3 more weeks off!
Love,
Ally